Thanks. Am I right to call him a perv since he would always say hi to us and ask how our day was? That's what he did and it pissed me off, I wanted to punch him and my friend said she was going to kill him.
Fair enough, IDK why I still think it's his fault
It pissed me off, he was a creep and a perv IMO, always saying hi to us
I felt like I had to. Common courtesy or whatever.
I don't know why I feel this way, TBH
I still somewhat think it's his fault
::: spoiler Suicide, self-harm mentions
In high school, I bullied one of the Special Ed students. (He was a girl back then but is a dude now because I still talk to him and we are friends.) Despite being smart, I couldn't see past my belief that all autistic/special Ed students were dumb and grouped him in with them.
He also was very awkward and quiet, and would always greet us or try to ask us how our day was. I eventually got annoyed with his awkwardness and his greeting us because he refused to gossip or talk about drama. I therefore called him stupid, especially socially, for not knowing or caring about our school drama, and with my friends, threatened to beat him up, told him to "shut the hell up", and "kill himself". Everyone but me still hates him and doesn't talk to him anymore.
We bullied him to the point he got very depressed and traumatized and even tried to hurt himself.
Now, we're friends and he's like a brother to me. We made up, I apologized, but a part of me still
This used to be even worse, but I'm trying to be a better person.
So, it's still a little there right now but it used to be really bad. Not only did I say I was LGBTQ for attention (and so I could say slurs) aside from actually half-thinking I was bi, I used to bully autistic people and those different from me. I used to say racial slurs constantly because I thought it made me "cool", and I didn't really care about the rights of minorities or what was going on in places like Ukraine or Palestine.
Just wanted to get that out... I'm really a bad person, I know.
Did I used to be homophobic? Am I?
Right now, I am honest-to-God trying to get better. I know there's something wrong with my brain and I'm trying to fix that. I try to be as supportive as I can to LGBTQ+ people and I don't mind if they outright say "I'm gay/bi/whatever" or "I have a [partner/spouse of the same gender]" but something about having to hear about romantic or sexual stuff with two women really doesn't sit right with me, especially with "yuri" or having lesbian relationships portrayed on TV. However, "yaoi" and gay relationships on TV I find awesome and cute, I'd say. Men, I find attractive, though, so that could be why. If a guy talks about his romantic or sexual encounters with another guy, I don't mind at all.
While trying to convince myself I was bi or pan, I would hang out with a lot of straight women, crush on only guys, and even hang out with homophobic women.
In high school, my best friend was a homophobic and transphobic girl who relentlessly bullied one of my bully victims: a trans man. I tried
Am I just a straight woman who wants to feel different?
I know no one can tell me my identity, that's for me to decide. But I've been thinking long and hard about whether or not I'm bi, even pan, or just a straight girl who wants to be an ally to LGBTQ+ people. Heck, this may even be a "rhetorical question" and I already know the answer and just wanted to talk about it.
First off, I'm trying to get better at this, but I don't really understand homosexuality. And what I mean is more like it doesn't sit right with me. Something is wrong with my brain where two women kissing especially, grosses me out a little and just feels unnatural and weird. I feel homophobic like this, though, so I'm trying to get better at it. I'm completely fine around gay people, supporting them, and people coming out to me, but something about me being in the vicinity of women doing romantic stuff makes me feel weird or having to hear about girls on a date. With men, however, the gender I find attractive, I do not feel weirded out about them going on dates, holding h