21h ago

im going to recovery tomorrow

im fed up with everything. I decided to hospitalize myself bc i cant take it no more, im extremely exhausted from life. Im a burden to everyone, i deserve no other outcome

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im extremely exhausted from life
Loud and clear.
Im a burden to everyone, i deserve no other outcome
(x) Doubt
I hope you get the help and support you need. And someday, I hope you can believe that you deserve it.

I hope you get the care you need.
I do want to point out that every human is a burden to everyone. It’s okay. That’s just how society is. It’s only a problem when assholes don’t want to pitch in to support each other.
- Not a burden. We're social animals at the end of the day. Everyone relies on everyone else to keep this whole thing we got going. Participating in that doesn't make you a burden, it makes you human. Hope you get what you need OP, we're all here rooting for ya.

I'm with you on the first half. the last part is just the burnout brain talking but i feel you. i don't know how I'm going to make this work

You do whatever you can to take care of yourself. That's number one. Most of us here experience burnout. It's good you recognize it and are seeking help.

What gives you the right to determine what you “deserve”?
- just the way i was made feel throughout my life
  
  I understand what it feels like to think you don’t deserve anything good, but please be open to the idea that you could be wrong.
  Maybe it’s not as important to get what you think you deserve. Another way of thinking about it is relearning to accept and reject the things that are given to you.
  I believe in you.

I sincerely hope you become well. :)

I believe in your ability to get the help that you need. I wish you well.

🫂

I am feeling like I want to do the same. I don't even know where to start to get the process moving

I'm considering the same for my bipolar. Each time I spiral into depression is worse and worse for me and everyone around me

You do what you think you need to do, and if you think this will help you, then it's a brave step to take.
Just one thing to think about though: I don't think the term "deserve" means anything whatsoever. I think it's a concept that was made up to justify wealth inequality and nothing more. It is an entirely useless category that cannot be falsified and has never helped anybody except those who abuse it to keep others down. Life is what it is, and what we make of it. No amount of talk about what anyone "deserves" ever changes that.
I used to believe in "deserve", and it did nothing but harm. If you have everything and believe you deserve it, you're entitled. If you have nothing and believe you deserve it, you're miserable. If you have everything and think you don't deserve it, you're a fraud. If you have nothing and think you don't deserve it, you're bitter. Since I realised "deserve" was bullshit, I haven't missed it for a single day. I still put food on the table, nothing changed, I just stopped keeping score.
You do what you need to to get by, and don't let anyone tell you you shouldn't. It's all anyone can ever do.

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