Kate-ay @ edg @lemmy.world Posts 7Comments 146Joined 12 mo. ago
What is even fucking going on? It feels like a child touching random shit on their parents phone, opening apps and accidently calling and buying things. Meanwhile the rest of the world just goes wtf.
When I'm like that I take a looooong shower and start a load of laundry. Both things are theoretically productive so they make me feel better and might get me moving.
The forecast was good. Don't spread misinformation and let Texas officials off the hook for not evacuating the area.
Back where I come from we call mirrors 'leaks'.
A basket/bowl thing for keys, wallet, and whatever one carries around. No more hunting for them when walking out the door.
Could be hammertoe.
Shame on whoever took the pic.
Season 4 episode 7, Marge gets a job at the nuclear power plant.
You're right, I desperately want reassurance. As bad as it is now, transitioning almost feels like committing suicide. Destroying my life and inviting unbearable shame. I know this is wrong, and I'm trying to change my thinking and feelings. I've made progress though, like you say about moving past decisions. I'm not scared anymore to be perceived as doing unmasculine things in public like crossing my legs in a femine manner, or having polished and shaped nails.
The second guessing would be easier to deal with if the dysphoria was more consistent. It can be very bad at times, such as right now, but then go away for weeks or months before roaring right back. This is how it's been for 25 years: cope, live with it, suffer for a while, repeat. Getting older seems to be making it worse too, because it feels like I'm running out of time.
I don't know if my relationship is going to survive me coming out, even without transitioning. If it does fall apart that might help me make that leap of faith, but for now I'm still trying to convince myself that there's another way and that I dont have to transition. Even though I dearly wish I could.
I recently read Whipping Girl and it was incredible. I plan on reading more of Serano's books. The Gender Dysphoria Bible is amazing too.
Thank you for the advice and sharing your experience. It means a lot.
My older relatives say the same thing, about how old they feel. That's a powerful insight about feeling alive. Thank you so much.
Maybe, and thank you. I guess my question may seem odd since I'm not actively transitioning. The context is that I recently came out to my wife with the understanding that while this is who I truly am I dont have any intention to transition. Mostly because it just feels impossible. Something interesting has happened though, being honest and open with her is leading me to being more honest with myself. I don't know what I'm going to do but I've been treating the possibility of transitioning seriously for the first time in a very long time.
Part of that has been second guessing myself over and over, which is kind of where my original question was coming from. I know who I am and, in a perfect world, what I want, but then I think, well if I really want to feel whole and complete so bad then why don't I even have the correct self image?
I am going to be reading and re-reading your comment for a while. Thank you so so much for replying. You've given me a lot to think about.
Age and hair are a big part of it for me, especially the hair because I have none lol. Presenting as male its no big deal but my god is it a problem otherwise.
I would very much love to read whatever you have to say.
This is a little weird
Did I miss a sarcasm tag, or are you seriously this histrionic about the biggest and one of the oldest names in video games outselling a niche product? Because it doesn't matter to almost anyone, even Valve. Multiple things/people can find success at the same time. It's not zero sum.
You must lived an incredibly charmed and comfortable life.
fucking pathetic