A very important friendship ended... I truly gave my heart for this friendship, helped this friend countless times in several things and.. it just ended, with me blocked and him avoiding me whenever he sees me. He goes as far as pretending to go somewhere else just so his path doesn't cross with mine. It truly hurts. Some of it is my fault, some of it is his. He was so manipulative, but at the same time, there were good things. I also spent quite a bit of money on this friendship.. I feel like he left an emptiness.
It does suck indeed. The trick is to keep busy. A bit sad that one has to keep busy in order to not feel sad but ya. Try to fill the emptiness he left with other things. =((
We're doing good now. This was his longest clean period since his last relapse. A relapse is bad, but it's never the end unless you allow it to be the end.
I have a bf now, but tonight he's watching comedy shows and smoking weed while I'd rather get more cuddles and gropes. Would be cool to get a polyamorous thing going but it would be hard for me to rope in more boys since my social skills are shit.