I can’t afford a therapist, because I can’t get a job with health insurance, because I am trans.
I had to give up my pets after my ex tortured me and kicked me out. I miss my cat.
When I was in therapy, it didn’t help. I got worksheets.
What I need is to have someone I can talk to when my brain is on fire to help me calm down. That’s what I would think 988 is supposed to be for. But instead it’s just the script and the police.
I have PTSD. All of the therapists in my area do CBT. CBT does not help. When I am triggered my brain is not capable of doing the stupid “replace this thought” shit because it’s not a cogent thought. It’s panic and fear and being a helpless little girl with the scary man and the women. I need help getting my mind out of that place, but instead it’s the scripts and the police which make me more scared and more worse.
There is no help for PTSD. That’s why people end up homeless. People don’t like that you don’t talk someone out of it.
Any time I have been stupid enough to go inpatient has only traumatized me more. I still have nightmares. I went in December, was misgendered repeatedly, physically assaulted. When they let me out, I hadn’t even spoken to a treatment team. They didn’t even give me a work release form, so I got fired and lost the health insurance and money that was allowing me to see my therapist then. All I got was more things to have nightmares about. I would rather be dead than in inpatient care. There is no protection from sexual or physical assault in inpatient care. Being gone from work for a few days now would probably put me on the streets.