reedbend @ reedbend @discuss.tchncs.de Posts 4Comments 14Joined 2 yr. ago
masking isn't something that I can "stop" doing, it generalized and became permanent at age 12.
I have been quite fairly described by more than one shrink as having blunted affect, which describes my level of displayed emotion, not how strongly I feel it.
so, I can only "unmask" to some degree around ... well, he's dead. so nobody.
any thought on a Signal group?
every month, I need to fill the same prescriptions I've had for between 10 and 20 years.
every month, one or more persons whose job it is to get those pills into my hands without interruption, fucks it up.
as a result, the stash of critical medication which I jealously hoard as a hedge against this exact problem (as well as natural disasters, etc) grows smaller. I now have about 7 days remaining. I will rapidly become sick and then completely nonfunctional if I miss my meds for even a day.
it's now crystal clear that the American health care system is not designed to help me with this problem, and that it has no intention of ever doing so.
oh, you also got the "can never, ever, ever 'tune out' any type of speech sound" autism? it's currently destroying my life and has been doing so for nearly a decade btw 🥲
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Melatonin is a clock-setting hormone, not a sleep aid, and most of the supplements on the (US) market have waaaaay too high a dose. I get excellent results from 150ug (0.15mg) taken 4 hours before bedtime at the same time every night, and I suffered from delayed sleep phase syndrome for decades before figuring this out.
Dumping an entire bathtub full of melatonin (relatively speaking) into one's brain leads to more problems than it solves, and it's not even a very good sleep aid on top of that. Because its actual function is as a clock-setting molecule.
Industry also causes air pollution and plenty of it. It's more visually segregated in developed countries. But as an example, have you ever explored the Pakistani factory video genre on Youtube?
They feel the same about me when I decline the opportunity to get shitfaced drunk and banter over 17 games of "Mexican train dominoes" for the 59574th time.
The only person I have to babble at has level 2 autism and can only process a finite (and very small) number of words per day before she combusts 😭
when self-hating people who've learned a little about genetics and evolution pipe up with "why are we even still in the gene pool" sadposts ... this is why. overall, this style of thinking is a net positive to the proliferation of Homo sapiens, and every now and then even a net positive to the people who embody it.
The reason bullet journaling can work so well for ADHD/ExecDys types who take to it, is because bullet journaling is a structure of interlocking habits with an element of ritual to it, while "remember to look at the important list crumpled in my back pocket" is not.
I'm easily mesmerized by televisions and have been my entire life!
so many people with executive dysfunction have come to this realization thru memes ❤️
I would add: beyond executive dysfunction, people who also have low intrinsic motivation (ability to "just do it") and/or difficulty initiating, are also not bad people!
while it is our responsibility to always work on and improve our weak points, these aspects of temperament exist as they are, no matter how much moralizing busybodies insist otherwise.
Ha!
- you place an overdue library book on the floor in front of the front door. the library book merges seamlessly with the environment. six weeks later, you trip over it on your way out the house to go to the library.