how the fuck on 341 pg estro, LH increased to 2.40 while it stable zero even on 120pg...
maybe its just lab error or every day flustrations
im on transdermal E
i dont get at allmaybe because my region culturebut sometimes "девушка" (young women)funny that i never get called a boy men last year
i remember child said "тётя" (aunt) but him mother said "это дядя" and he said "тётя" again,
so cute, im think child saying what they feel and doesnt look to clotches and every mm of skull
i have high T pre hrt 20-27 nmol
and im experienced depersonalization some times derealization
suicidal thoughts, depression
etc etc
and it all from puberty start at 12
biochemical dysphoria really need research
im remember when i starting hrt with cyproterone
holy shit it like painkiller
after blocking receptors after some hours i feel better
and less psychotic
(also get a vpn if you didn’t do so already, use librefox + ublock origin, self host if possible, know your threat model, etc)
already
but basically, the best would be to go for a larger city in a relatively trans-friendly country. consider also society’s attitudes rather than laws only!
berlin?
considering you’re in russia, literally go to any bigger city (like 100k+ ppl) in the west, you’ll be much better off that way.
already
people are awful in asian part
also i look up at photos pre-puberty puberty start
my skull isnt changed at all
even think im look better now than boy pre puberty
only diffrence i see now that i weight gained and grow up a little bit
so i really avoided male puberty coool, if i didnt get estro one year ago i think i ended with $uic*de because i was VERY DYSPHORIC in deep depression, and happy now (ignore brainworms im really happy)
that makes me a less dysphoricwhy somedays no dysphoria some days have dysphoriabut is not estrogen levels because at high levels i feel same lol
ah no, stop i know: i was bumped with antipsychotics 2 years ago because one psych think im schizo(hopefully others think im ok) then got psychosis and motor disorders on them and other psych prescribed latuda so i still cant found time to tape it (im at min dose), think this drug mess up my dopamine now
yea my voice is naturally girlytestosterone are near zero stable for 1yrestradiol - sometimes is waaay too high, ~200pg now, last bloodtest said 469 pg and i lowered back (should be 150+ pg, even 120 pg at lowest give me strong T suppression 0.64 nmol)
dont ask me why i cut hair but short also okay for nowi want to grow out to chest and colour to idk what color
on reddit ive never got detailed answer imstead i will got depressing "you re valid" "4tranner" (they think are only 4tran dysphoric about every mm l)
or transdermal, progestogel