im remember when i starting hrt with cyproterone
holy shit it like painkiller
after blocking receptors after some hours i feel better
and less psychotic
(also get a vpn if you didn’t do so already, use librefox + ublock origin, self host if possible, know your threat model, etc)
already
but basically, the best would be to go for a larger city in a relatively trans-friendly country. consider also society’s attitudes rather than laws only!
berlin?
considering you’re in russia, literally go to any bigger city (like 100k+ ppl) in the west, you’ll be much better off that way.
already
people are awful in asian part
also i look up at photos pre-puberty puberty start
my skull isnt changed at all
even think im look better now than boy pre puberty
only diffrence i see now that i weight gained and grow up a little bit
so i really avoided male puberty coool, if i didnt get estro one year ago i think i ended with $uic*de because i was VERY DYSPHORIC in deep depression, and happy now (ignore brainworms im really happy)
that makes me a less dysphoricwhy somedays no dysphoria some days have dysphoriabut is not estrogen levels because at high levels i feel same lol
ah no, stop i know: i was bumped with antipsychotics 2 years ago because one psych think im schizo(hopefully others think im ok) then got psychosis and motor disorders on them and other psych prescribed latuda so i still cant found time to tape it (im at min dose), think this drug mess up my dopamine now
yea my voice is naturally girlytestosterone are near zero stable for 1yrestradiol - sometimes is waaay too high, ~200pg now, last bloodtest said 469 pg and i lowered back (should be 150+ pg, even 120 pg at lowest give me strong T suppression 0.64 nmol)
dont ask me why i cut hair but short also okay for nowi want to grow out to chest and colour to idk what color
on reddit ive never got detailed answer imstead i will got depressing "you re valid" "4tranner" (they think are only 4tran dysphoric about every mm l)
some other, also cool i doesnt have adam apple
also as full body - i definitly pass ~162 cm and overall body is ok
also i never grew facial hair(even no body hair at all)
(how hard it was been to get hrt at 15 and convert transphobic mom to normal)
HOW TO GET RID OF BRAINWORMS???? okay im started working with good psychotherapist so patience
my biggest brainworm is dating 3 years ago when i was very dysphoric egg craking and music teacher said BOYS VOICE BREAKS AT PUBERTY GROWS THROAT , VOICE CORDS AND GROOWS (!)JAW(!)
after that im dysphoric about my jaw at some ANGLES that its grow on testoshitrone
but on photos its seems like +- SAME than PRE puberty
First of all, mad props to you for having the courage to upload your face to the internet! I would be way to scared to do that!
better than posting anything on russian VK, or even any capitalist western social network because roscomnadzor doesnt know anything about small fedi instances
Do your experiences confirm this? When you go into a shop for example, what honorific do people use for you?
they not gendering me at all (im inst very social)only ~twice in this year i remember i was called a boy but after that hrt do thingsmore often girlchild always call be girli rememder PRE HRT at awful state a 7yr was thinked im girl also 9-10yr was ask me im boy or girl also pre hrt and moreeeee
im remember when i starting hrt with cyproterone holy shit it like painkiller after blocking receptors after some hours i feel better and less psychotic