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chattre

@ chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

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I think I'm running out of "it is what it is" cards

the transit enthusiast of blahaj zone

  • [cw: dysphoria] Boymoding is getting harder and harder to bear

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  • it's so bad... 💔🫂

    I haven't had any time to myself this week to care or dress the way I need to... it's been boy boy boy BOY 24/7 GRRRHH LET ME OUT

  • egg🥚🔥irl

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  • yay!!!!!

    so many newbies recently, it's made me feel not alone :3

  • Tuta Drive First Look: The Encrypted Platform That Does What Google and Apple Won't

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  • could make sense for some, slightly easier than needing to encrypt everything before uploading

  • Those who have ever taken medications for depression or anxiety, how long before it started working from your experience?

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  • wtf same?? 😮

    solution: everyone gets free estrogen! /j

  • Hows the middle week for everyone!?

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  • I am this year's class!! I just wanna get it over with and move on... close one chapter and open the next

    honestly still find it pretty funny that my journey feels reversed, things that are "easier" to do are hard for me and the "harder" things are more manageable...

    • outfits: I have no idea what I want, exploring takes time I don't have atm, I can't store them somewhere easily accessible, I can't wear them very often, ugh. I do have a skirt and thigh highs which I love though so I know that much at least... I'm now in full support of pants ban >:3
    • shaving: also pretty spotty, I've gotten a routine together but I can't do my arms or face without making spawnpoint get all on my case again...
    • haircut: I already have long hair, but I can't style it or explore, ditto with shaving

    but then??

    • therapy: appointments are available in the near future so I'll have to check them out
    • job: very likely coming I hope... I want my own money just in case of anything
    • name: I have a name already and it sticks... love it sm and my friends use it whenever we talk
    • HRT: zero barriers!?? thank you PP but wtf that was scary fast 😆

    I'm starting to see how the rest of the world is ready to accept me far better than my spawnpoint... keeping away from her and making myself better is the goal!!

  • This is what a typical british breakfast looks like

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  • ragebait? I'm not even British this food just looks like it was intentionally cooked in the worst ways possible

  • Hows the middle week for everyone!?

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  • cute comfy looking fit :3

    I posted about it before, but I got my first injection done yesterday!! inside I've been feeling super great :3

    my spawnpoint has just been getting on my nerves lately though, hot weather coming up and she won't stop bugging me to wear short sleeves and shorts... LITERALLY NO... I can't even explore further than plain long sleeves and sweatpants because of you... I do NOT want to go back to the masc stuff

    some part of my impulsiveness just wants to do it one day just to let her see that I've already shaved myself quite well, but then home life would get quite a bit more explosive... she thinks I'm following her "advice" and not doing any transition. I know I can't keep up the lies and deception forever... but I gotta try really hard to hold out at least until after my high school graduation

    as always, my life is always a mixed bag... sigh 🫠

  • first injection!!

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  • hehe for me it's been anything red. everything red and red adjacent like a deep pink/orange is just popping out at me even if it's something I've seen before... so much it might be my new favorite color if this keeps up :3

  • first injection!!

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  • the first things I'm noticing subtly is how sunshine and rainbows everything feels rn... I have no idea if this is just what normal feels like but I haven't had any negative feelings since I woke up and everything looks so colorful, that last one is probably just spring rolling in though

  • first injection!!

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  • an oldie!! NYCT/MTA Bus/NICE don't usually run anything over 20 years old on the most active lines

    and def no double deckers, we only got these stretchy thingys

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    first injection!!

  • first exfoliation.,...,

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  • thx, there is so much stuff I've been missing out on... like shit no wonder why people take care of themselves it feels great :3

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    first exfoliation.,...,

  • Denial arc??

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  • I'm pretty new to this as well 😅 so take these from a newbie

    I like to journal whenever something happens that's affirming/dysphoric so I can take a look back whenever I'm feeling that impostor syndrome come back on. whether it's just writing on a document on my computer or looking back at my posts in this community it reminds me of what makes me upset and what makes me happy :3

    I also love the "girl button" question, because the truth of knowing that cis people would stay far away from it, yet I still wanna press it after all this time is a great affirmation

  • No little kid ever pointed excitedly and said "A rideshare!"

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  • teach em young, railfan makes for a happy life

  • blahaj family :3

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  • get it.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    blahaj family :3

  • The mist of the www

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  • "Something went wrong."

    motherfucker I will OPEN UP THE NETWORK INSPECT TAB AND FIGURE OUT WHAT WENT WRONG.

  • aaaa appointment done!!

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  • yeah I'm in the NY metro area!!

    sorry you can't get it legit, hopefully you find some avenue that's less sketchy 😅

  • AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA >////<

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  • yes they always stick together!!

    I wanna get a big haj soon :3

  • aaaa appointment done!!

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  • I wish, but Nassau County NICE buses and the LIRR still get places

    fingers crossed I get back to NYC 🤞

  • AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA >////<

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  • tyty :3

  • unixsocks on fediverse @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA >////<

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    aaaa appointment done!!

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    EEEEE APPOINTMENT TOMORROW!!

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Full speed ahead.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Irreversible decisions. (advice??)

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Human ft. SF-A2 Miki

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I did it.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Small steps.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    chattre @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Why.