Art in my heart, but mischief on the mind.
- Videographer
- Cat lover
- Horror enthusiast
I occasionally make absurdist comedy videos on Salutation Nation
Thank you! <3
Thank you!!
It was truly wonderful. Couldn't imagine a better date night, honestly!
My week has been great! A girl I've recently started seeing asked me to be her girlfriend, which made me wildly happy. I've never been somebody's girlfriend before ☺️ We tripped on mushrooms and cuddled the night away, and things have been going really well so far since then!
Whoa, that's awesome! Once you start getting read as "girl" when you're out and about, it is such a lovely change. You can look forward to a lot more comments like that in the future!
I'm doing well! Had a lovely Halloween with my friends. For work, I dressed up in a witch costume, and then at a party I went as Gretchen from Cuckoo, had a blast wearing both. A few friends told me that using she/her with me feels very natural, and that made me happy :)
Very funny, the people who were saying "good luck losing your customers!" Uh, it's FOSS lmao. What customers?
Aw, thank you! They have really helped me feel like myself ♥️
The dress makes me so happy. My friend's mom told me it might be a good one to compliment my current shape, and I think she was spot on. She did get me my first pair of heels, but they are just black. I have many shoes to buy in the future lol
Thank you!
I feel so fortunate to have such incredible support in my life ♥️ Thank you!
Thank you so much! I have always wanted to wear the Velma fit lol, dream come true
Thank you! Yes, it made me tear up, just such a kind thing to do. The outfits feel wonderful to wear!
LMAO, the perfect soundtrack. Montage of e injections and limitless attempts at winged eyeliner!
Thank you!
My friend's mom made me a "Welcome to the Gender" care package!
In early June I went to a local drag show at a bar my friend's mom owns. It was her first time seeing me since my transition, and she was surprised with how happy and lively I was, compared to the masc person she had previously known. One of the songs the queen sung was very sad and she was deeply moved, and ended up crying on us pretty hard.
Apparently after that, she resolved to make a little care package for me to help me along in my transition. After all, buying a whole new wardrobe for yourself is very expensive lol. She sent me a message asking to meet her at the bar, and we ended up having drinks together and unboxing all the lovely things she got for me.
She got me two bags, two skirts, a dress, some boots, a pair of heels, fishnet tights, makeup, a target gift card, SO much stuff. I was really moved; nobody has ever done something like that for me before.
Anyway, I did a little mini photo shoot to show her how everything fit, and to tell her how much I liked it all! I thi
Oh good, I'm so glad I could help give hope for you in your transition! I thought I was kind of hopeless before, but sticking with it has ended up being really rewarding. I am sure it is the same for you. Thank you!
It's been making me smile all day ☺️ Thank you!
Those glasses go perfectly with your lipstick shade! They both suit you so well 🙌
Unexpected Gender Affirmation at McDonald's
I spent this last weekend partying at a cabin, then came home and immediately had to do a 5:00am video shoot for work come Monday morning, so I had no energy to put into my appearance today at all; I have been a walking husk, just carrying this fresh-outta-bed disheveled look through my day lol.
Once my shoot was over, I decided to get myself some McDonald's breakfast and went through the drive through. I made my order in my very deep voice, and was told, "ok, that will be $7.50 at the next window, sir." That's what I expected, because I have quite a manly voice as default, and I am not confident enough in my voice training to use it out in public.
However, I get up to the window to pay, the lady takes one look at me, and says "Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry, ma'am! Of course, ma'am!" That had never happened to me before, where somebody heard me speak, sees me and still decides I'm a woman. Getting misgendered did not bug me at all, since it was what I expected in my unglamorous presen
".get" on a dictionary saves so much space, gonna use that all the time! Thank you!
I had this building feeling that it was something I wanted for myself, and it was growing for a long time as I came to understand more about my identity. I was also deeply afraid though, so I totally get what you mean. I thought that I'd have to commit all the way from the get-go, and that sudden physical changes would mess up my life.
I talked with a transgender friend of mine, and he reassured me that it was ok not to know my destination, and I could just start E on a low dose, go slow, and see how I feel. It's a lot less frightening when you know you can change your mind whenever.
I just ended up finding that the longer I was on it, the more like "myself" I felt, and that point where I changed my mind never came. It is so much easier to get started on something big like transitioning if you take it a tiny bit at a time and check with yourself to see if you're still on the right path for you.
Gotcha gotcha. Did you have an easy time getting a prescription for it? I have heard some health workers are hesitant to prescribe it because of the lack of clinical studies regarding it
This is true. I remember one product called Femboy Tummy Pills that was just poison. I just had my HRT checkup, and I forgot to ask about prog so I am impatient lol. Might be best just to wait, thanks!
Does anybody have experience with progesterone creams?
I feel like I am at a point in my transition where I might benefit from adding progesterone into the equation. However, I have heard wildly different opinions on whether it has any impact at all, and criticism of generally available creams on amazon for not being the same as human progesterone, since they are often derived from plants.
What do you girls think? Are they junk, or are there some out there worth trying?
Finally came out to my mom yesterday.
As of this post, I am about seven and a half months into my transition (mtf). I've had talks with all of my friends, and all of those went great! I have been overwhelmed with the love and support from everybody. Some of those conversations were scarier for me than others, but none of them were as intimidating to me as a conversation with my parents.
I don't live with my parents, and I haven't for a long time. I have a complicated relationship with them because my childhood was less than ideal, but they recognize that they did a bad job, and we are all in much better places in our lives. Since we've all been living well, I've been making an effort to try to become better friends with them. This meant that I would probably have to talk with them about my transition some time, because it was getting more and more obvious in my appearance.
Yesterday, I took my mom out to try sushi for the first time. We talked candidly about a lot of things, but I didn't feel like the middle of the sushi
Major Makeup Progress!!
This last weekend, my friend encouraged me to try learning puppy dog eyeliner since he thought it complemented my eye shape. I'd never used liquid liner before, and wow, it is tough to master lol.
Trying to achieve this look quickly became my Dark Souls; get off work, sit at vanity, get ass metaphorically kicked SO hard, wipe off, repeat.
Last night I finally got something mostly symmetrical and clean, and I'm really happy with it! Feeline quite pleased overall. Just wanted to share!
Got gendered correctly by a stranger for the first time!
I was out helping my grandma do some shopping when an employee came up and asked, "are you ladies finding everything ok?"
I am not out to my family but I have been on E for a number of months and got a bob recently, so I guess that was enough for a stranger to guess woman over man. I was even wearing a big Carhartt jacket my parents got me because it's v cold rn, so it was definitely not my outfit!
Felt pretty cool, and I just wanted to share!
Parents asked me what I'm doing to look so good
Visited my mom and dad for thanksgiving, and one of the first things my mom said to me was "Wow! Your hair and skin look great. What are you doing differently?"
I am not yet ready for the awkward conversation that coming out will entail, so I had to restrain myself from saying "yeah I just inject e once a week" lol.
I'm only about four months in, but people seem to be noticing positive differences in me. Pretty cool!
Smoothest Coming Out Experience Possible
This weekend I was camping at a faire with some friends, and resolved to tell the last person in my friend group about my transition.
The talks went over really well with my other friends, but I have been pretty anxious for each of them because I feel like I never have a good idea what the reaction will be.
In full disclosure, by this point in the faire all of us were fairly inebriated. The group had kind of fractured off into smaller clusters, so it was just me, my friend I hadn't told, and one that I had. We were walking back to camp from a spot where we had been watching the stars, and I felt like it was as good an opportunity as any.
"Hey, now that we have a moment, I've got something I've gotta tell you," I said. My friend inmediately froze in place, arms spread in a T-pose, eyes wide like a deer in headlights. I thought perhaps the way I lead into the convo sounded like I was going to say something grave lol.
"So... I've been going through a bit of a transition," I say. She i
Switching to Intramuscular Injections
At my last telehealth appointment, I asked my provider if I could switch to injections after reading some advice on here. Taking the strain off of my liver seems like it can only be a good thing!
I am scheduled for an instructional appointment tomorrow morning to learn how to administer them properly. Nervous, but looking forward to the change!
The Chest Pain™ has begun
I am more than a month into HRT, and I have been seeing some small changes over the month but not experiencing that ache people talk about at all. I was hoping that perhaps I would be immune and it would never start, but nope lol.
Seems like it is here to stay!
I'm about 2.5 weeks into HRT. Feeling great!
I was supremely anxious about starting for a long time, worried there would be sudden changes that would disrupt my social life or that I would get cold feet.
I am sure that any body differences I am seeing are mostly in my head because it has been such a short time, but I am more confident than ever that I am on the right path, at least. I feel really good, and I had some talks with friends about this transition and they were all really supportive. I had the DIY HRT tab open in my browser for like six months, so I am glad that I finally got over my fear and. (I going through PP and not doing DIY)
Just wanted to let you all know how it's been going!
Positive Moments
As a person just beginning my transition journey, I find that it is very easy to get caught up in the doom and gloom mentality, since there is so much negativity surrounding trans people right now.
I thought it would be nice to counterbalance that with some positive moments, gender euphoria, etc. that you all have experienced lately!
I'm very eager to see what has been making you feel good lately, and what makes transition worth the climb. Thank you!
My estrogen has arrived!!
This is just an update to my previous post about my appointment with Planned Parenthood.
That appointment went great! They just went through the standard Informed Consent stuff and some brief information about myself, and then made sure there were no conflicts with my current meds. They gave me the all clear, sent the prescription through to my pharmacy, and here I am!
Very psyched to embark on this journey
My gender affirming care intake is on Monday!
I've had this appointment scheduled for months, and I am nervous but also very excited. It's finally happening!
How do you keep hair from constantly getting in your mouth?
I have been growing my hair out for months now, and it has reached a point where strands are getting stuck in my mouth all the time lol. I like the way my hair looks, but I would like it if it attacked me less. What solutions do you all use?