22h ago

Sooo, I got professional help and it turns out I'm a sociopath💀

I am a 22 year old Panamaian-American woman who a little while ago got into a car crash. I don't feel ok with getting into the pacifics all you need to know is that it left me needing to go to the hospital. I suffered some injuries that weren't permanent but serious enough to need me to go to the hospital. After I had mostly recovered from my injuries the state of my mental health came into question. Me and my mom decided I should see a mental health professional so we both chipped in and I started seeing one.

After like a little time I got a formal diagnosis which was less than flattering to say the least. It turns out I have something called "anti-social personality disorder". At first I thought that meant that I was autistic or something but it turns out that's the fancy term for "psychopath"/"sociopath". Which means I'm literally a psychopath now🥀🥀🥀. They also found out that I'm a neurotic alcoholic woman with histrionic and paranoid personality disorder as well as a poor memory. I thought they were making things up to diagnose me with. I've always been a nice person I don't see how I'm a "sociopath". As the kids say, I'm cooked💀.

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I hear you, I have this disorder myself. I was surprised as well when I was diagnosed. Soon enough you'll start seeing it in your behaviour and don't worry. Your not "cooked". Those with ASPD can live normal lives you just need insight and help. You may not feel empathy or shame, you may not be able to relate to others and you not be able to tell the difference between wrong and right but none of those things will hold you down. You just feel emotion and perceived things in a different way. That's all.
As for the "alcoholic" thing. It's common for those of us with this disorder to become dependent on drugs and booze. It's a way to satisfy your need for stimulants and to combat chronic boredom. I take both myself but I'm not addicted.
- Thanks for your advice. If I do turn out to have this disorder it's nice to know that there's people who understand out there. The thing you said about alcohol seems to fit me. I hate being bored and love to take risks. I'm a pretty big thrilloholic.

If you know you have these traits, you can consciously decide not to act on them- it will help you stay the nice person you are.
- Pretty much

I'd be curious if there's a potential alternate diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder. Both ASD and ASPD have similar features. Might be worth checking into because they aren't handled the same way.
- I don't have any sensory issues, I don't have any special interests and I speak normally. I don't think I have autism.

Perhaps you may try a different therapist who is kinder to you? It is true one can get slapped with labels that are scary; but it seems you lost something in this encounter and that is not how therapy can help
- Thanks, I would like to see a different therapist in the future to get a different opinion. I don't really think I lost much in the accident. My memory has been shit for as long as I can remember. Which isn't very well. If that's what your implying.
  
  I meant the therapist seems to have made you feel worse about yourself

s/pacifics/specifics/
You are not defined by your diagnosis, you can be any kind of person you want to be. If you want to be a kind and considerate person, then be that person!
- If this language wanted me to know the difference they wouldn't sound so similar.
  
  Ewe half a pint they're

Look on the bright side. If some creep is trying to hit on you, just say you’re a diagnosed psychopath. If that doesn’t do the trick, you know you need to reach out for your pepper spray. That short line should speed up the process significantly.
- Pretty extreme reaction to some creep flirting with you. In my line of work that's just a daily occurrence. I see were your coming from though. If someone ever has to do a background check on me it wouldn't be a good look.

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