"You'll grow out of it"

Except...

I never did.

I'm in my early sixties now and very little has changed. I still find men and women attractive, men more so than women.

Being told "you'll grow out of it" is a hope, a fear, that you'll learn the "error of your ways" and become "true".

Except truth ending up being turned upside down, and what I was told was true turned out to be the lie.

Religious people lie. They make up stuff to support their beliefs to the detriment of others.

Right now people equate being gay with paedophiles - except the vast majority I hear about... are priests?!?

If you watch something gay when you're young, you'll become gay yourself. I saw nothing gay when I was young, yet here I am.

You know all this takes its toll on you, you end up very tired of the struggle to keep going.