I responded to someone's call for help (assistance, not life-critical), even though I had just gone to sleep. Got up, dressed, went out into the world, and met someone to get tools to help someone who still relies on me.
I started processing trauma memories and working on maladaptive survival behaviors in January. Running and dissociating always seemed better for some reason.
I guess I was afraid Iād learn that I deserved abuse growing up. It turns out that it wasnāt about me at all.
Mindfulness practice has brought more agency and intention to my life. Despite this being the hardest and most painful thing Iāve done, itās also been one of the most rewarding.
I applied for a great job that I'm definitely not qualified for, and I'm through the first two rounds of interviews. I didn't even think I'd go to the first interview purely because of my agoraphobia, so I'm proud of myself for pushing through it.
I passed my cell and molecular biology paper (which was pretty hard and mostly irrelevant to my consumer food sci degree ) and found out that the one paper I managed to pass during the year I was fucked up by SSRIs means that I've already met all the requirements for my minor!
I am a program manager at a non profit that helps older adults. I have been working this morning on our annual report since fiscal just closed for 2022-23. I was astonished to see we somehow managed to serve over 500 seniors this year, a record for our small program.
It might seem like nothing, but my department has been literally me and just one part time person in the office for years. We finally got another ft help in December, and it really made a difference. I do manage several vendors that work in the field and a group of volunteers on top of that, so it's pretty hectic. I used to be one of those people who never wanted to step into management because I love client facing work and hate the admin side of things, but I am really proud we did so much this year! We even managed to do it while losing our office space to a fire last fall, so all together we accomplished a lot. Feels good. š„°
I've been trying to make myself handy to save money and I was able to change out my rear coils and front CV axles on my land cruiser recently. It was a huge pain in the butt and took me 3 days, but I made it. haha
Solo travel with an anxiety disorder. Getting pushed out of that comfort zone, but I still choose my own adventures. It's freeing and I hope it will promote some personal growth.
Iāve just built and launched a new site for my work! Itās something weāve been trying to do for literally years and about a month ago I decided to just sit down and do it myself, and Iām so glad I did.
i built a rigid heddle loom and wove myself a scarf! it sucks and is super wonky looking but i love it, and its been neat learning about how weaving works and the history of textiles and all that junk. did you know that weaving is one of the oldest crafts in the world? we were doing it back in the paleolithic, like 27,000 years ago! its very neat. it took me like a month to build the loom, and a few days to weave the scarf, and its the first time i've felt this much consistent focus on a hobby in a long time. it also coincides with me getting new brain pills (and estrogen) that are working really well at restoring my passion for life.