3d ago

Sooo, I got professional help and it turns out I'm a sociopath💀

I am a 22 year old Panamaian-American woman who a little while ago got into a car crash. I don't feel ok with getting into the pacifics all you need to know is that it left me needing to go to the hospital. I suffered some injuries that weren't permanent but serious enough to need me to go to the hospital. After I had mostly recovered from my injuries the state of my mental health came into question. Me and my mom decided I should see a mental health professional so we both chipped in and I started seeing one.

After like a little time I got a formal diagnosis which was less than flattering to say the least. It turns out I have something called "anti-social personality disorder". At first I thought that meant that I was autistic or something but it turns out that's the fancy term for "psychopath"/"sociopath". Which means I'm literally a psychopath now🥀🥀🥀. They also found out that I'm a neurotic alcoholic woman with histrionic and paranoid personality disorder as well as a poor memory. I thought they were making things up to diagnose me with. I've always been a nice person I don't see how I'm a "sociopath". As the kids say, I'm cooked💀.

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I hear you, I have this disorder myself. I was surprised as well when I was diagnosed. Soon enough you'll start seeing it in your behaviour and don't worry. Your not "cooked". Those with ASPD can live normal lives you just need insight and help. You may not feel empathy or shame, you may not be able to relate to others and you not be able to tell the difference between wrong and right but none of those things will hold you down. You just feel emotion and perceived things in a different way. That's all.
As for the "alcoholic" thing. It's common for those of us with this disorder to become dependent on drugs and booze. It's a way to satisfy your need for stimulants and to combat chronic boredom. I take both myself but I'm not addicted.
- Thanks for your advice. If I do turn out to have this disorder it's nice to know that there's people who understand out there. The thing you said about alcohol seems to fit me. I hate being bored and love to take risks. I'm a pretty big thrilloholic.