is possible to get full erectile dysfunction?

i have no random erections

BUT I HATE THIS AT ALL

i hate the pp which didnt athropy at all for a year on hrt

i hate "sexual function"

i hate the fucking penis and balls (which also doesnt athropy much)

i hate m@sturbation i hate i hate i hate

why sometimes i dont want m@sturbate but body wants (this happens even at zero T and high E maybe high E?)

i feeel supper dysphoric by next day after that

and prolactin spikes after this for a DAY(up to 600 mMe, 300 at normal days)

also is possible to get some penile athropy somehow but would be better if 70-80% athropy