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I also remember when people would constantly say that games were too short. I didn't play them at the time, but there was a period when everyone was complaining about waiting for a long time for games - paying a lot for a game, and then finishing it in 5-7 hours and never playing it again.
No worries, as you can see I love seas of text. I'm a conversationalist, and some of my best moments have been just sitting and talking with folks of all kinds. So eh, I'm loving it =)!
My grandfather he did calligraphy. It was something he picked up in the military, and he kept it with him always. He actually journaled regularly, He told me to pick up the habit, and it's actually why I do it. I don't know if he'd agree with my chaotic manner, but I think he'd be happy that I do it at all. I never looked at his journals, because I think looking at people's personal stuff is rude unless you've got explicit permission. I have heard though, from my mother after his passing that they were practically like records.
Many moons ago I went to school with a bunch of Brazilians and I thank god for their awesomeness! A lot of folk I knew explicitly used pencil sharpeners. They were on the walls of every school I saw. Electric ones in every office. I didn't even know you could pull out a knife and sharpen them, although if you really think about it - of course you can! The Brazilians kept their pencils in tin cases (something I absolutely love to do nowadays), and sharpened them with box-cutters and it gave me that "aha!" moment and made my life! I like that you cut to the chase, and remove the plastic element. I think I might lean into that too, as I am always trying to think of ways to be a more sustainable individual.
Yeah, apologies! I don't take a lot of pictures anymore, because I think phones are creepy fucks. My mother is getting older and she can't/won't learn new things. She loves Apple, and I can't get her to migrate to anything else so I keep a very old (It's pretty much an Iphone 5) phone around to stay in touch with her. I just don't agree with any mega-corporations privacy policies, and so I just decided to pretty much not use my phone unless I am talking/texting with someone I love. It's nice because I never pull the sucker out in public. It's bad because I have stopped visually recording my life in many ways. Yet, I still can't justify an external camera because I just don't think I'd use it enough to keep it. I'm a little mama (as in, I am short and tiny) so when I go into nature, I am not looking to carry something around that can leave me vulnerable. Which kinda scratches that off the list as well. I know most hikers are nice, but that's er...most of them, not all. Eh! People pick victims they know they can take advantage of, and I think a sizeable pre-teen could take me so eh =P!
Quite nice! Hahaha! My secret was that I wanted something I could balance on one knee and be able to draw on without much fuss. I've got a new pad of paper, I think I should start considering making a new guy to take around. You've got me having the itch for it =)! I always cover my things in fabric, because I like to pick out beautiful patterns and utilize them. I also like the soft texture when you grab it. The geeky little stealthy individual in me also likes that people can't really identify what they hey I am holding right off the bat. I really like your design by the by! Looking at that spine "wow-ed" me! It's ingenious! The way I allowed for less/more depth is by sewing a "travel" piece of cloth between the two boards I had. That way if I wanted to add a bit more paper, I could and it had some give, but otherwise the front overlapped the back by just a bit. Not too much, because paper isn't the thickest but I am sure you get the idea!
I have a poor technique when drawing. I wish I didn't. I even trained not to, my hand just NEEDS to touch the paper, I am not sure if it's for stabilization, or what. It's kind of how I have always worked (I have been drawing since I was a tiny little bean) and it's how I am the most comfortable. It drives my partner crazy, because she uses those old masters style of pencil holding (where you hold it by the end) and never touches the paper outside of setting it. So she'll be really loose on the hold, and here I am like a little gremlin hunched over (I know it's bad for the back, but I love feeling "captivated" and this is a part of the process, I am totally going to have a hunch when I am an old lady =P!) and choking the pencil. I feel sort of like a printer, that is jumping all over the place in one area and printing out bits of an image line by line. But damned if that doesn't bite me in the ass if I smudge. I know smarter folks use a piece of paper as a barrier between, but I guess I am not smarter folks because I never seem to learn my lesson =P! I just integrate oopsies into my drawings like tattoo artist do cover ups. I stare at those beautifully thin and gliding pen tips (with that liquidy ink) and I run in terror of them. Just because I have such a messy technique =P! I have trouble controlling them, and a cheap and fat ballpoint does me better than a loose and quick tip because there's still a bit of grip. The friction gives you time to sort of think of where you're going next, and I need that thinking power honestly. I think it might literally be the difference between a second (I just mimed it), but it really does make a difference to me.
Which is quite funny, because digitally I use nibs for art =P! But everything glides digitally, so there it's more so a matter of point.
I have never heard of Zettelkasten, no lie! I think index cards for journaling is quite awesome though! I had thought about it after hearing about my grandfather's passing because they were trying to figure out what to do with his scores of journals. I wondered if there were a process you could follow that could be both neat and compact and that was the system I came up with. I am so apprehensive of digital records for a multitude of reasons. I think it'd clearly be the winner here, but I think it loses both privacy and comfort. I am going to read more about this technique you use, it sounds really interesting. I know this is going to sound psychotic, but when I am done with one of my notebooks, I cannibalize it with a knife until it's little bits and then toss it. Which, probably isn't the best solution for keeping records. Especially because I fill them with not only my feelings but ideas and comments. In a perfect world I'd set them on fire, but it seems dangerous nowadays to do so. I see it as sort of a letting go process, but I should probably look into ways to keep the ideas | records separate from the | raw stuff =P!
My friend who bu-jos by the by indexes everything. She's so freakin' brilliant she blows my mind on the regular.
I am in flux, I am old stuff and new stuff all the same. There is an artist I once heard who described herself as "I never knew I was old, until I went to the doctors and they told me I was." I think I might always be that way. I'm a firecracker by birth, and I think even if I am hobbling around in a rambler or something I will probably still be one. I come from some proud people, and I think there's just a little warrior spirit in my bones. Catch is I see myself slowing down, health issues tackled like they aimed to maim and the hair is no longer a pure beautiful raven black like it used to be =P!
People have always fascinated me, so I have taken in all kinds of interests (media I suppose is what I am talking about here generally) and tucked them away into folds of myself. I like it because most things that I like tend to have a reason, as in a story that I can associate them with that typically ties to a person. I figure that way even if they're out of your life (for whatever reason) you can always bring them with you. And personally, I think appreciation of one's spirit is perhaps the highest compliment you can send to someone =P! Even if they don't know it. That is to say, Harvey is one of those things, but I really do enjoy the flick and I hope (guys?) do as well =)!
Oh yeah, no okay so umm goofabout talk here on the television thing. My partner NEEDS television in her life, I need television away from my life. As in, I cannot think with it in the room, or at least that's sort of how it's been for me. I have gotten used to it, but it still sort of hurts to be honest. I think there's an evil curse that actual televisions cast into the air. I know it sounds woo-woo but they just change the dynamic of a room. I actually welcome them in hospitals and what not, even if it's garbage on because I don't really mess with my phone so instead I just kind of sit around doing nothing for however long it takes (which sometimes can be hours). I tried to get her to meet me on this, but realized she just NEEDS a television in order to function. I really wish I were joking, but it's just how it is for her. So I've invited them back into my life. But also, even when I didn't have one I like media, just in a way that I can control it. So if a buddy recommends something, or if it's something that I am interested in I will watch it. I had a friend (we've gone different ways just because of life) who was a stand-up comedian. He loved, loved, loved Bojack Horseman, so I gave it a go. To be honest it's pretty freakin' depressing and destructive and not totally my bag. There is a character on it who is eternally upbeat but is also a bit of an airhead. I sadly identify about ten folds with his existence and told my friend as such, because he told me he identified with Bojack. While I love positivity, I do recognize that toxic positivity not only ostracizes but also kills. So I think it's good to see the positives but also hold space for others (and all the emotions). Cause otherwise positivity can run everyone and everything out of the room.
My partner had to go do some errands, so I am waiting for her to come back before we go on our little adventure. I'm glad I got this time to respond to you =)! I will look into how to join this instance (?yet again, is it called that? Idk?) and report back! Be well!
Get out! I was thinking lately that I wish they would (re)release all of their games again so I can finally play the damn game with the bird-dog. A long time ago, a friend showed me a trailer for that game before it came out. I missed it, and maybe with them releasing a new game they might consider putting the old ones up for funding? I don't care how awful the controls or the ai is, their games blow my mind, just like you said =)! Thanks for the heads up! I wonder if it'll end up being an Playstation exclusive, or if they'll open the channels up a bit more?
or the meat and beer, for those who partake =P
I think in general people's attention spans wax and wane. I will say I think there's a series of things you can do that can help put on a presentation, even if you're "bad" at it. I think practice makes perfect. You don't have to be a parrot, but you should be familiar with whatever you want to present. The Sims had it right when the little person talks in front of the mirror to be more charismatic. I mean, you don't have to do that, but a kind person forgives a sea of "umms" and most people are not kind. I got some great advice a hundred years back to basically write your speech, hit it until it sounds natural, and then put it in an outline. Have cheater notes so to speak, where you can lead yourself conversationally. Use that, then when you have a handle of that knock it down to just bullet points. By that point you'll pretty much own your presentation, which gives you an air of authority, which is the entire point of a presenter typically. It's how I cheat the system, and I've given presentations on a large and small scale before (not often, but have done so in the past). I absolutely dreaded it at first and even dropped out of school because I didn't want to take a speech class (no lie). The wonderful human mentioned above helped guide me to the finish line, and I am so terribly thankful for that. Time, talking to every kind of human under the sun made pretty much everything better. That's why I said the last bit on the bottom.
I am not a quick person, I wish I were. Witty people kill me, because they're so quick. It takes time for me to mull things over in my head, to respond. Even medicated, it's just an uphill battle unfortunately. I can't play the crowd, and I wish I could. Pretty much the only way I have learned to "cheat the system" is to approach situations where I need to be authoritative like above. But likewise you've gotta say the "right" things. By that I mean if you're going to ask for audience participation, you've got to do so in a fun and succinct way. People don't tend to like cringey introspective questions unless it's done in a fun and stupid way. Of course this whole damn thing is cause of comic. I just always try to impart this knowledge I've gotten because most people will have to give a presentation at some point and this advice I got saved my life. So I try to keep the spirit alive by passing it on =)
Ooo, last one of the night. I am excited because of the past "this movie is pretty bad and kind of goes nowhere but I still love it" kind of horror movies I've watched The Black Phone is one of them. I don't really know what kind of setup they're going for here, as I think the first one was based off a short story and I am not sure if there's a corresponding short for this one. Likewise the last one ended in a perfectly cliche kind of way that makes you feel all warm and tingly. I'll still give it a go though, when it's out. Just probably not rushing to see this. Shrugs.
Hehe! Hey! I'm a sleepy one, so I might respond with more goob than usual. I like to use these natural wooden pencils to draw and write with. For the longest I would only allow myself to use pens, as I liked the flow of ink (ballpoint sans gel so I guess I would hate monte blanc stuff cause I heard it's buttery smooth) and I wanted to fight my perfectionist tendencies by taking away the ability to erase things. I'm much happier now after years of training doing stuff like that, but revisitng pencils felt like meeting up with an old friend. I like that with a single pencil and some mindful technique you can do quite a variety of work. The pencils came with the sharpener (believe it or not) and I figured might as well have a meet b. Before I was hacking at stuff with an xacto like an animal. Your design is much cleaner and minimalist as compared to mine (although we have parts that meet for sure). I would stick a Japanese style break-off razor on there before I stuck a boxy little sharpener. I think it'd fit the vibe more too. You could always run it across your pants pending they could take it, before putting the knife back after sharpening.
I swear, I started with my design sort of open face sandwich and when I added that flap to enclose the whole thing it all came together and I loved it even more. I like your design, and it probably isn't that thick, so it is something to consider because it does add girth to the design. Which kindaaa, makes it less portable. I mean not too much, but it did take up more space in my bag, which is just a tiny little sling. All space counts in that situation.
I actually secretly love a mean blunt pencil, it glides really well (I think blunter is? Idk. I am not a word-wizard. I figure as long as you convey the idea, eh!) and it has a pleasurable feeling. I don't remember how I got a hold of these things when I was younger, but I had a couple of carpenter pencils (I haven't used them in years, I should give them a go again) and they were blunt as the days are long and damned if I don't miss that feeling so I totally get it if you're just highlighting stuff with it. The reason why I need that mean sharp point is because I like to doodle little fine details and they're hard to get without something you could spear a fish with.
I totally want to join this journaling er...instance? I just literally don't know how and my brain is too sleepy-dumb to figure it out. I journal on the regular, in a half-composition book because I am fancy like that. I have a friend who bu-jos like a boss. I gave it a go and realized I need my journal to be sloppy, because I want it to hold space for me. As in, if I am regulating heavily (which I think bullet journals are) then I am afraid that I will BE afraid to put the things I am honestly thinking and feeling on to the paper and hence will not get the things I need to get out, out. I think if I make it more of a organized reflective process it might just become the flossing of writing and I just don't think I need that in my life personally. However, it's damn near impossible for me to find the things that I have sprawled out on the pages like the organized folks do. So you know, it's more of a splatter piece and that does have its downsides as well.
If you do know how I can join this via piefed, I am absolutely there. Or anyone else, or I will give the docs a lookie loo tomorrow-ish? Sometime soon, depending on plans =)!
I love Muttley, he's such an ass! Hahahaha! I mean, idk if you're an ass - you don't seem it, but damned if that guy isn't a little cheeky bastard. Speaking of cheeky bastards, have you ever seen the movie Harvey? Cause it sounds like you might like Trickster characters, and while it's got some bits of its age I absolutely love this film. I showed it to my gal, who hates "old stuff" and she ended up bewitched by it and just knowing that puts a smile on my face. To be honest, and I feel so damned ashamed saying this - I think if I were translated into a cartoon character I'd end up being like Mr. Peanut Butter from Bojack. I had a friend who was obsessed with the show and I told him as such and he actually agreed. Bubble headed or not. Eh!
Either way, it's been an incredible pleasure to have "met" you and regardless of if we can figure out the link thing or not I thank you very much for all this fun conversation =)!
I am going to check this out. If you are interested in a modern fantastic tower defense that (also) doesn't break the mold check out Bella Wants Blood. It's very cute, and I hear her say "STANNNLEEEYYY" whenever I think about it.
I <3 WI
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In my wildest dreams. I bet you when they made it edgey perhaps (I know for a period they made it edgey but I don't know the specifics of it). I do like the idea that you can be real good gal friends without all the raucous sexual tension. Cause when I first came out (and being gay was as accepted as scratching yourself up with a brillo pad) gals were super dubious of my existence. As society became more accepting, I made a literal shitton of straight gal friends. To the point now where they are the majority of my inner circle. Not that I think either is particularly queer coded. Betty is just a tomboy and Veronica is just a flirtatious gal. Hahaha!
(God that sounded like I was joking at the end but I am just laughing because I really think it ends there, but things can change and I haven't read this stuff since I was young so idk.)
This shows you why echo chambers of all designs are bad. It's why I hate the down vote arrow, and wished that it disappeared off the face of this planet. People got frustrated when that happened with Youtube though, so shrugs. Please keep being a witty one =)
I want to get grumpy here and say that watching their edutainment documentary on ____ (fill in the blank queer subject because I don't remember the focus), that introduced me to Christine Jorgensen and had clips of her performing made my LIFE! I think they were from the Library of Congress or something, and who the hell knows if they even exist anymore. She did a cover of Welcome to my World that took the tune from a old crooner song to this upbeat fun and flirty jam and it was absolutely mesmerizing. That was just a ten second clip too, but it was so wonderful. I had another grumpy pants moment tonight when I talked about how happy people are post-transitioning and how frustrating it is to me that people can see transjoy and think "I want to smash that." I mean I have met so many transfolx who have this deep seated awful pain that pretty much saps the life from them until they get the right support they need. It's like night and day. I just don't get it. We don't recruit, even though we used to chant it to scare the straights. Really, we just make people more aware of the possibilities of who they could be if they want to be said way. Youth explores, I've known a LUG or three in my lifetime. I think exposure to a wide range of folks in media helps people. I know I was happy the first time I saw someone who looked like me on a TV, and it damn near took 25 years or so to do it. So yeah, it's important. I really hate this happened, but hopefully they've just archived them for later. You can't fuck with the bag in this world.
Me too, actually. Hehehehe! To be honest with you, I think my favorite state in the Midwest is WI, gotta love those lakes in Madison. I swore to myself at a young age that I wouldn't "backtrack" which means I want to keep living in new states cause life is short and it's important to get in all you want to get in before you get too old or tied down to do so. Only state I am willing to revist is Eastern PA, cause I lived on the other side and it's practically two states put into one. One of my close friends lives in MI, but we met in IL she's in the Kalamazoo area. Some bent part of me wants to go to the UP, but I think it'd be an easier sell not to look towards the SE side. Especially cause there's puffins, and who doesn't love to see little puffins hanging out? I will say Detroit last time I went through had some of the saddest architecture I've seen in my life (I'm sure you know where I'm talking about). Looked firebombed. I think it's flipping though, and I know there's a bustling art scene. I think my favorite thing about the Midwest as a whole is how kind folks are. It's not always there, but when it is it's real genuine. It's actually that genuine spirit I like about the East too, although it's not the same scene obviously. I just like that organic energy, people acting as they think/want. Of course I tend to stay away from the water cracker folks out East, so that might be different with that old money kind.
A friend of mine who is from MI (but not the gal I am talking about) lamented the winters there. Said the snow never seems to end, the wind is brutal and it rolls off the lake with a fierce misery (because it's to the East, you know). He also hated the basements, most of which are unfinished and dungeonous. Hehehe!
Either way, I hope you're air quality is doing okay. I am not sure what exactly is going on, but these wildfires have been killer for the air. Thanks for responding back by the by =)
*You folks online need a hug or something, jeez.
I don't like that you're getting downvoted. A) You've got your own way of talking but I totally get what you're saying. You are mayhapsby some kind of goth baby, and I am picking up this vibe from your text =)! b) I totally get what you're saying. This for sure is something being done to play on people's nostalgia. I heard something about how it's easier to produce sequels and play on individual's nostalgia than to create something new because it needs to establish a fan base to generally be successful. I think with more sub-cultures than ever before (thanks internet!) it's easier to flop new ip because it's harder to find the secret sauce to get the maximum amount of views plausible as audiences are more diverse than ever. I have also felt the way you've felt, about letting sleeping dogs lie. Letting things that have ended fade with dignity and such. I get it. I also see you're doing what you can to stand by your own idealisms, which is to boycott the show. I don't think your comment is worth downvoting, and I think there's like...a subversive element of toxic positivity in people doing so. A wide variety of voices and opinions are needed in this world. Cheers!
You and me, we're best friends now. You get Earthbound. I love you. It's one of my favorite games forever-ever. Got it at Blockbuster used for $5. Best $5 spent ever. While I personally hate the skinnerbox effect of achievements, I love this damn game. I also love your excitement to play it again. Tell me your other favorites =)
I love two very sweet trans suicide survivors. One of them, you'd never know. The other has to wear their attempt openly. Life is fucking brutal for a lot of queer folks, let alone trans folks. I think a lot of people see them as ill, or not even human. I watch White Underbelly from time to time (I think that's what it's called). There are a handful of queer/trans individuals on there, including someone who de-transitioned and later unfortunately took their own lives. A lot of people aren't going to talk about it, because saying things out loud can a) make you a target b) get you sent to some kind of ward but I think a lot of transgender people are actively suicidal (I mean you can just look at the statistics). I think a lot of it has to do with the lack of moral support they get as a whole from other people. I think being in state of transition (as in say, not having the medical support you need) is already rough. But when you live with the fact that there are very limited spaces in this world you can actually navigate "safely." Or the fact that most people think you're a freak and would prefer if you would just be "normal" but being "normal" is basically like killing yourself anyways - it's just a brutal space to be in. A lot of the community as a whole is vulnerable. When I was coming up, I had two audacious gays comment about how they don't even understand why we celebrate Pride anymore. It seemed so surreal to me, as they seemed to have been really coming from some kind of place of privilege to not even understand why so many people turn inwards to the community for support. So many people have to live in this space where they are tolerated but not truly accepted. They lose their support networks, and many tend to never make anything as compared to their counterparts. They deal with a lot of emotional baggage that most people never have to bring to their doors. There's a beauty, and curse in the found-family aspect of the queer community. As I think community as a whole is wonderful to cultivate (we're social creatures), but that lot of the queer scenes can promote bad habits (addiction). I think that one comes from the spaces we've been forced to be at so long, but eh!
I don't know who this man is, but I am kind of thankful for that. Personally, I often say a little prayer for folks who are so broken that they find their money through reving folks up via the spin machine spouting hateful shit their kid selves probably would have looked shock to hear them say. We buy in to our bullshit, even if it starts as an act, humans aren't as quick as we'd like to think we are and it's really easy to get lost in the sauce when we socialize as a wave.
I don't know too much about Andrew Tate or his brother. I do know that there is a sort of cruelty that comes with certain individuals who relish in Trump's political gain. They think that the world has gone quite soft, and that survival of the fittest means brute "strength." That it's a dog eat dog world, and they would rather be "top dog," than "bottom removed." I think sex trafficking is bad, but I often wonder - why is there a market? What cultivates this scene? Cause it can't just be the rich. There's something we're not addressing that very clearly is the elephant in the room. Something between our inherent belief that life is a) precious yet seemingly b) cheap at the same time. Or that socioeconomic status denotes actual value or something. Or even that rowdy women need to shut up or some shit. Idk. There's something that is some very ugly belief that is out there and perhaps even held by the majority of people alive that we either academically/socially have buried that we cannot address because it's something people (used to) just say behind closed doors. I've heard in on all sides too from the poorest to the richest, and all the colors of the rainbow. People are hiding their true feelings as to not ostracize themselves in public (I don't believe in the shit above, I am just saying there is something we're not addressing that needs to be addressed in an intelligent (and perhaps even subversive) way that educates individuals and shifts their skewed views to healthy ones). Eh. I forgot what I was saying as a whole, I am pretty tired of expressing myself here and I wanna go do something I enjoy instead hahaha!
I guess I am just saying - there is an cruel joy that I have seen a lot of people who enjoy media like this hold. I was working with youth when Trump got elected the first time. There are a lot of well of white guys celebrating and laughing in the faces of the various multiethnic folks (especially the black and brown women) when it happened. I don't think these people see punishment of their movement as something healthy. Instead seeing it as an example of how "we the gestapo" would lock all those that don't believe in ANTIFA values up for life if we could. Which puts everything in a us vs them mindset, and they already came to fight which just fuels the fire.
I don't have solutions, and I am not saying individuals who commit crimes shouldn't be punished (is this a double negative?). I am just saying that it's a complex issue, that is made perhaps more complex by the unified idealisms behind the bigotry. For movements grow stronger with unification, and liberalism tends to be a pick and mix smattering of individuals who believe in human rights, but are not as unified. Which outside of the actual cult-like worship - makes the entire republican movement look like cultist. Regardless of how hardcore people are or not.
EH!
Idk yet again, if any of this made sense - it's just what came to mind in response. I hope it makes sense to you and I am not trying to pick a fight or anything. I just am a me =P! And while I would love to still invoke the angry feminist I was growing up, I really have mellowed out with age and just kinda like...wanna chill even if everything is shit. Cause if they're coming for folks, they sure as fuck are coming for me. So I guess I might as well enjoy what I got, while I got it and plan for the worst if I gotta hit it.
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Thank you for this, I haven't seen one in a long time but I also don't really go to comic shops or anything anymore. I used to when I was a baby geeklit. I love comics for what they are, I just don't know if I connect with them in the same way I did as when I was younger. I think the need for financial gain has also altered the scene quite a bit, regardless of how talented people are. I think I was listening to an interview with Sophie Campbell one day and she said she doesn't really read loosies anymore because their pacing always seems off. It's kind of the same reason why I can't stand Netflix shows, because it feels like they're put together to create the largest amount of arousal and retention as plausible, while stringing an individual along (they're also hella flashy, the camera changes every three seconds). Eh! I think there is a wholesome element of Better & Veronica (Or the Archie-universe as a whole) that is actually really needed when you're younger/coming of age. Because everything feels so strange to you, and it's nice to have something be simple, sweet an non-antagonistic.
I have seen people on here talk about how people creep on you from a young age if you're perceived as desirable (I didn't really want to point at any gender, but I know it happens a lot to gals). While I think people are more apt to talking about how unwanted advances of older individuals against young folks is bad, I actually think these things are still difficult subjects to approach. But I think a lot of media has subversive almost grooming like effects that can really subconsciously harm young minds. No one can really escape it, and equally there are elements of puberty that obviously make you sexual. But there's also elements that make you almost asexual in nature. They two kind of butt up against each other. It's a confusing space, and people tend to enjoy media as a pause from the confusions of life. So like I said, I am glad that these comics still exist. I am also glad they evolved, because they were written in a way that white-washed America (Leave it to Beaver) in way that people have worked to shift (Raisin in the Sun) to permit more equality in the country. For as much as people hate it (white supremacist) I think diversity is the spice of life, and in including it they found a way to reach a wider audience and stay afloat in a volatile market. If I come across one of these, I'll grab one just to see how things have changed cause of you. Thank you =)!
p.s. - (I talk about the grooming stuff from my own experiences, but also from the stuff I've heard other folks say. On media, I clearly partake. I just think there are elements that are really harmful to people as a whole, let alone developing minds. There's also some wonderful stuff though, that help expand the imagination or even educate individuals on good moral standards. So eh!)
I like games, and I like playing turn-based games. I have been playing JRPGS for most of my (gaming) life, and I just recently got back into them. I have been playing fan-translations and look up the folks who translate the stories to thank them. I was playing Bahamut Lagoon and looked up the translator and went down this giant rabbit hole seeing as they were both a) trans and b) dead. I found out this whole thing about Kiwi Farms and kill counts and the poor trans creators that all were pushed to the brink by harassment. I went on this huge mental journey trying to understand how broken an individual has to be to see a vulnerable person and think "if we only push them x-amount they'll fall over the edge!" I am not guy, and I have never had testosterone. From gals I have talked to about this they've commented about how it can make you rage, or how it feels like driving the worlds fastest race car but you have no real control of it. I can't understand male rage, but I can understand ostracization. Equally, I can look at a human and know they're dead ass wrong, but also understand that they're more than likely a broken human using whatever tools they've got to navigate their world. (I also know it's not just guys, and that there are gals with hate in their hear too. It's just I really think the gameosphere is predominantly male) I have never once won a damn thing personally by telling someone off. I have won things by being a personable human and finding a middle ground. Putting in the time and creating relations with folks. Shit has changed a lot over the years, and I am not sure if things can really be fixed anymore. But I will say that I think in general we have poor coping skills on the liberal side. I mean conservatives will burn everything to the ground, but that doesn't mean we have to stoop to their level. It's just a stereotype, and general reason why people seem to dislike liberals so much is because I think they think they're "snooty." I am a brown gal as far as folks can see, so I have had my own fair share of eating shit because of people's racists assumptions. Even the most "educated" individuals can be absolutely trash when it comes to being respectful to others if they let their biases take the leads. You kind of have to learn to be tolerant of people's bullshit in general, or it'll eat you whole.
I have seen (and at one point read) about this paradox of tolerance. I understand the issue. I personally think the reason why we have fascists in the Whitehouse for a reason. It's because it's really hard to survive in a healthy way for most Americans. Equally, because Trump is a corporate candidate. So basically on both sides he is appealing because he says "I will bring labor back to America" while actually being a easy palm to grease for whatever wealthy individuals need. Likewise, a lot of people in middle America and below believe a) nothing good will ever happen for/to them and that the government doesn't really do anything for them so why should they care? b) that they can't afford groceries, so why should they care if some "faggots" get their feelings hurt and c) that you can work yourself to death, put in overtime hours, and all that happens is your taxes go up and you see only a sliver of the work you put in. I have lived in several depressed economies, I have also lived by this point in several wealthy ones. It seems to the wealthy, the wealth never ends regardless of spending or habits. To the poor, the wealth never comes and it breeds a lot of emptiness and anger. They don't really think about one another, because the poor don't really know how well off a lot of the wealthy have it and the wealthy keep themselves healthy by not thinking about erroneous shit.
I am liberal, and I wanted more than life for Kamala to win. I can understand though, how she did not. It's because I think many people live within the sphere of their hopes, instead of the ugly truths. My biggest complaint about liberal governments as a whole are that they are a) too permissive of bad actors and b) they don't ever seem to make moves and when they do it's always too much money on stupid shit. I don't think my complaints are that far off of conservative views of the party, and I am in the party. Biggest difference here is I am not making the laws. Yes, in theory I influence the laws through voting. But I am not making them. So many people hate Americans right now. They don't understand how they voted for Trump. I did not. I didn't vote for him, but people cannot stop generalizing as if all Americans went to bat and did so. To be perfectly honest, old boy more than likely cheated to get himself in the seat he's in. But I still do think he got a lot of votes regardless. And to be honest, I in a way was terrified (as I was living in a red area at the time) as to what thing would look like otherwise.
I am one person though. I am not going to list all my intersectionalities, but I will say I have gotten sick off of all this chatter that comes out of both sides. I think there was intent there obviously, but even if we scaled back all the bots and agents of terror you'd still see people smacking one another with sticks. That's not civilized, and I don't think it's a healthy way to solve problems. I come from a people who have been pretty much eradicated from this planet. I have faced a lot of anger in my life, as it's my first reaction. To say "fuck that shit" and get pissy and want to stand up for everything that's wrong in this world. But as I age, I find that it's not really helping me as a whole and that I'd much rather just be as healthy as I plausibly can be. Likewise, I hate bullying, I always have. I don't think it's healthy and I think it's trashy as a whole. It's like picking a scab or something, it's just a bad habit to form. So I have decided, as I come from a people of love - and that the people I have always admired have been those that have found the strength in kindness that I will follow suit. I don't need to push my ideas on others, although I am free to express them (especially on the internet). I just think in general that we can support the bettering of this planet/community/people/party/etc - by being optimistic realists. Not in a toxic way, just understanding that life itself is rough. Humans are messy. That even your worst enemy generally isn't a puppy kicker but just a person who is probably broken in their own way and will more than likely not get healthy support they need to overcome their pain. Equally that there's a ton of people who are being fought for but still don't get the support they need to overcome their pain. That we're in this huge terrifying space of uncertainty even without assholes tearing apart protective legislation. I just think we need to cultivate more kindness in these times because just about the only thing that ever makes me feel better is such and I have seen it build bridges all through out my life.
It's really to each their own, and everyone gets a seat at the table as long as they're not touching kids, killing folks or animals as far as I am concerned. The world needs fighters like you. The world needs lovers like me. The world needs a little bit of everything (I mean, I personally could do without the above crap), I just wish that most people got that. I will say even in tolerance, I saw someone who got thumbed for being a pedophile leave one environment and surround themselves with the elderly. So like, even in that case I think there's a place for everyone. I just think you know, people have to want to do maybe not so much the "right" thing but just want to grow as a person. Cause from that space you can uplift yourself, as well as others.
Idk this was a huge rant, I hope you get me. I get you. I too don't know what the solution is. I just wish mockery wasn't such a huge part of how people "flip the script."
p.s. - Idk about other governments, but the American government as far as I am concerned is almost exclusively a government for the corporations, by the upper class. So I think there's a large disconnect between the rhetoric and the actuality.
To be honest, with the way things are, I am not sure if I will celebrate pride in a public setting ever again. I wish I was joking. When I was younger, it was my favorite thing ever. I mean it was like a big gay paradise, and anything could happen. One of the last ones I went to just had cops shouting in the faces of everyone the entire time the parade passed through. I lived for a while in a place without any sort of pride. I think though, due to Trump being re-elected bigots have been emboldened. They see their prejudices as just and righteous and extremist are pretty unhinged nowadays. I'd absolutely hate if I lost someone I loved, or myself just because I wanted to go celebrate a protes-ival. I suppose that's the whole point of their terrorism, but really I will let others go out and scream from the walls. I think my day in that scene has come and went, and I don't mind because of the current state of things.
Also true story, there's like 10 gay bars (well 10 lesbian bars, idk about gay bars) and two of them are for bipoc, so idk why people have to double down on their hatred. Lastly DC has long since been scrubbed of anyone but the wealthy so I bet you these are some Tate heads or some shit, because idk who else would be in the area and decide to smash up a gay bar.