When did you realise your feelings weren't normal?

After finishing college. While applying for one of my first big kid jobs, there was a segment in which you could report mental illnesses as a disability. I cried about it more than once and probably will again.

I had been living in a deep depression and anxiety haze for the majority of 3ish years. I remember being confused why I’d be suddenly overwhelmed with emotional distress while walking to class and had no clue where it came from. I didn’t know I was also experiencing frequent panic attacks, sometimes daily.

Needless to say, I am now just aware that I'm periodically going to take trips back down and just try to “suit up” and prepare as best I can to survive them. It’s easier knowing more about what’s going on, but it’s still hell.