Is it normal to feel like you are not a communist or slowly becoming less communist?

If your material conditions aren't basically forcing you to always try and find a way out (when you've already gained the beginnings of communist consciousness), you might just be struggling with the fact that your own life isn't really that bad, and slipping into old habits.

Keep reading Marxist theory and developing your class consciousness and killing the little bourgeois-self in your head trying to commandeer your brain.