I want to know what your gender means to you, how you define it, what it means for you to "be" that gender and how you define it. Don't fuss about 'correct definitions' or anything, this is about your experience, I want to know what it means to you. How you relate to that gender, perceive it.
Genders have a social construction aspect and is very subjective, so I think people's subjective, personal views of their own are both important and interesting. Inquiring mind wants to know!
A lot of this has to do with society, like externally I would never want someone to perceive me as a man and I would like for them to perceive me as cute or a woman.
But also internally I want those things.
I don’t like the idea of being masculine, or at least being the level of masculine a man is.
I want nothing to do with the effects of testosterone physically and mentally.
I like being soft, I don’t care about being strong (even in a positive non-toxic way).
Obviously like…Men can be feminine, to some extent and Women masculine and even I’m some parts of each, it’s not a hard binary.
But the part I’d emphasize or want people to acknowledge first is the feminine.
I see, yeah I've noticed a few people have a strong repulsion to being or being perceived as man, or just testosterone playing a large factor, which is cool, I thought I was kind of alone in that being a huge motivator for some reason.
The part you'd want to emphasize and acknowledge first is feminine, and so woman(or girl idk) works best for you?
Yeah, idk to me it’s like…I have a lot of boyish interests and stuff like that, but it’s not like…”oh you have to be into shopping and whatever stereotype to be a girl.”
But at the same time I feel like there is a difference in liking stuff, even “masculine” stuff, as “a girl” versus as a “guy.”
At least.
Kind of in the same way loving a woman as a woman is different than loving one as a man in some ways.