Hi I'm Azura~
Hi I'm Azura~
Hi, I'm Azura! I am so happy I have found my way to this community.
Self Realization
This year I've been checking out lemmy. Just lurking around, being mostly drawn to !transmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone and !196@lemmy.blahaj.zone because reading your posts and comments gave me this weird, funny, wholesome warmth that I just couldn't explain. "Like joy, but it hits differently".
One comment lead me to look up the "egg prime directive". 2nd search result was an article title Am I Trans, which answers the question, but - as the title implies - also goes beyond. And... oh girl, was that an emotional roller coaster! It's so suspiciously on point, I still need to figure out if the author (Cassie LaBelle) is secretly me from the future.
Early on in adolescence I started "accepting" that I wasn't afab and learned to suppress my feelings, to keep my fantasies in my dreams. I've actually asked myself several times throughout my life if I should consider a "transsexual transition", but my archaic understanding of the concepts made the whole thing appear scarier than it is. "What's to gain if I don't even hate myself"?
Gladly, the Am I Trans article cleared up a lot of my misunderstandings and fears. And the posts on lemmy.blahaj.zone gave me so much joy and hope! I knew that denying it any longer was hopeless. Not just becoming a woman, but the thought of having always been one feels oddly right to me. So, on my favorite day of the year, I hit that turn-me-into-a-girl.com button and transformed my lack of self hate into actual self love. Now here I am! As of writing: ✨ still closeted ✨
But I'm working on a coming out. I am certain that my friends, coworkers and close family are all supportive, which is a great privilege.
About me
I'm about 30-ish, a programmer and political activist. I boycott eating animals. I live in a small city in Germany. I guess I can start considering myself a mom? No clue how long one has to wait for HRT here, but maybe my daughter and I will both hit puberty in parallel 😅
Shout out to @TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone and @QuinnyCoded@sh.itjust.works, your posts were the stars that guided me through the night🥚.
Love, Azura
Wait, almost forgot to add a photo. It hints at how I came up with the name "Azura".