Being single vs not

Being single, I don’t have to worry about my boyfriend looking at and lusting over other women. Or not listening to me. Or judging me. Shouting at me. Calling me names. Threatening suicide. Or about his well being 🤷‍♀️. Keeping him interested…. The list goes on. Rethinking if being with him is really worth it…

But I don’t get cuddles, kisses, a person to go to and be with.

I always thought, “I need to focus on my friendships before getting with a guy” friends are the foundation. I wouldn’t be with me if I was a guy. I’m pretty boring. Not got anything going on. But Yh. Even though I’m currently single, I’ve not used my single time to work on my self and my life and improving it.

I do romanticise having an fp that I can run away with but. Maybe this is it.